Yesterday was the anniversary of my mom's death.
Do you remember when you wanted to get older, go to college, get married, have babies, etc.. and your parents would say it will happen quicker than you think? I remember not believing my mother when she would say that.
I say that to my kids all the time! And I have learned that it is true.
Time Flies, even when you may not be having fun!!!
It is hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I have not had my mother for 20 years!!!!
That now, this year, I have been alive longer without her than with her!
July 4th quit being special to me in 1992. I don't ignore it, but I don't particularly enjoy it or look forward to it at all.
Depending on the year, I could be sad, angry, blah, or ok. This year I was in a bad mood. But, thankfully, we still had friends over and they had kids, so my kids had fun! We went to see fireworks and it was good.
But really, at times throughout the day and night, I just wanted to be with my family. People who had been with me when I was 19, 20 years ago. Not that we would speak of it, or be extra sad because we were together, but because you can just be and they know.
My husband and children have no idea what July 4 is to me.
My brother, father and aunt do.
They each called me!
Just to see how I was.
I hate not being able to see them but once a year!
Where you can be yourself
They know junk about you but still love you
That which represents my mom
That's where I wanted to be yesterday...