Lost

"I know you are lost...

But not that lost!!!!

You know your path,

you have just been scared for a while

with the dark woods that satan

had put beside your path!!...

You know it is that!

You will not let him win!!!

He is out to get us!

I love you!!!! 

You know what is right for...

U!!!

That is your light and path!!!"

(text message from my brother)

As I read this message late last night, I burst into tears.

Is that what I am? Lost?

About a year ago, I guess, I thought it was complacency.

But now???

Still complacent?

Why did I suddenly cry when I read that?

Is it because it is true?

Am I lost?

Do you have a job?

NO

Do you know what your purpose is currently?

NO

Do I know what I'm supposed to be doing?

NO

Have I attempted to solve it in multiple ways?
YES

Have I isolated myself from everyone?
YES

Can I fix myself?
NO

Have I tried?

YES 

Hmmmm...

Maybe I am lost?

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