Rayin Wynter Ann Stephens
This past weekend, my daughter, Rayin, would have been 11.
It's hard for me to imagine an 11 year old daughter, seeing as I
have 3 boys, only 1 who has been 11.
I'd like to think that we would have gone and gotten
manis and pedis and maybe a coffee too! Went to
the mall and bought a new outfit plus accessories too!
Actually, I have no idea. Sometimes I think of it more than others.
This year was better than some, but of course I still thought of her.
It's funny....I think I'm the only one.
Well maybe funny isn't the right word.
Sad I guess.
Many people don't even know that
I should have a daughter.
It's really not a conversation piece that is brought up much
and definitely a downer to bring up.
I have grown much in these 11 years, but I still have
Sometimes I believe that that is the hardest part of
Rayin's death...not knowing why.
But I don't dwell on this
or else I would go crazy!
Instead, I choose to believe and know that
God is good
God is love
He knows more than I do
He loves me
she is in a much better place
and I will see her again one day.
Until then, I want to remember her and
wonder what it would be like to have
an 11 year old daughter,
even if I'm the only one!